Posted in Faith, Life, Uncategorized

Forgive. Repeat

21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?”

22 Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.

Matthew 18: 21-22

 

I have this friend that I am really close to and they did something to me that I thought was unforgivable or close to that extent. This is one person who knows everything about me and they are supposed to be the last person on earth to ever do something like this. As I get older and meet more people I realize that trust is absolutely vital to relationships. If there’s no trust then what is there? it’s all meaningless!

I wasn’t as hurt over what they did as I was over how much they deceived me and the extent they went to reassure me that what I thought was happening wasn’t happening. All I could think about were the times I asked and they looked me in my eyes and blatantly lied. What they did was absolutely wrong and the fact that they have not apologized does not help anything. When their response was not remorseful I blocked them off everything. Their number was blocked, Instagram, snap chat, WhatsApp you name it. I was very angry and I think I was rightly so. However, this anger I was holding on to was not benefiting me at all. That’s the thing about anger, it makes you feel justified and condemns the other person but staying angry solves nothing.

Today God humbled me. There was a time that I did something that hurt this particular person and they let it go and we worked through that. I was extremely ashamed of what I did and was thankful and humbled when they did not hold it against me. When I thought of that time, my brain argued that what they did was worse but my heart reasoned that the hurt caused was the same. I thought about the person as a whole. I considered them from all this time that we had known each other. Even now as we are not speaking, I know they have my back. If I was in any kind of trouble and I called them up, I know they would be here. I am like that to them as well. So all in all, this is not a person to give up on.  God put in on my heart to extend the forgiveness he so eagerly offers to me when I ask for it to them. I did it and I feel light and free.

Trust will have to be rebuilt. That’s the thing about life and relationships though. People are not perfect and we will hurt each other. My goal in every relationship is to be quick to forgive, to act in love and to be kind. Always, as my God is.

-charity

 

Posted in Style, Uncategorized

Doo Wop (that thing)

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Holy, it’s been awhile since I’ve been on here. It’s not that i’ve been busy, just that I have not had the motivation. School is starting very soon so I gotta get emotionally and physically ready. This summer did not go as I expected but all things considered, it’s been good. There’s always next summer.

I’m going to miss sleeping in, exploring downtown with friends, beach bumming and having time off. It will be good to finish off school though. I’m going to be starting my last year on Tuesday and will be graduating sometime in June next year. After that I will take a fashion styling course just to see what it entails or try to get an internship.

Anyways, I liked my outfit today so I documented it:

Dress: Forever 21

Brown fringe bag: Ardene

Choker: Ardene

Shoes: Thrifted, Browns shoes

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Later,

 

Posted in Beauty, Faith, Life, Style

The one with all the tree climbing

Happy Father’s day,

Thank you daddy for putting our needs and wants ahead of yours.

Happy Father’s day to my heavenly father. 

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It’s been awhile since i’ve been on here. The main reason being that I’m lazy and the other reason is that I’ve been working. Yes you’re girl is back at it, trying to save up money for school. It’s funny too because it’s something that i would never have gone for and yet here we are. God has been showing me lately what I am capable of achieving when I stop looking at my self imposed limitations and act in faith. I went into interview process not believing that I would make it. I have this bad habit of selling myself short. The day of the interview, I kept telling myself “yes you should be here, you have the experience, you have the skills.” I guess I did have the experience and skills afterall.

Earlier this week,a friend and I went out and took some pics. I’m really loving my Canon EOS Rebel. It’s worth the money and it’s so easy to use.

Here are some shots:

Outfit

Face: 

top: Urban Planet

skirt: Zara

sandals: Shoe warehouse

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I love how dark I look here

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Meet my photographer/model/gal pal Mimi

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Favourite one

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got the smize down

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We will most likely  head downtown next with the camera for some new scenery.

Later,

 

Posted in Style

CrazySexyCool

 

 

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Do you have that one piece of clothing that you treasure and usually only wear on special occasions because you would hate to waste it on an insignificant event?

These bootcut overalls from H&M are my most cherished piece of clothing that were not thrifted. I originally got it for a styling assignments with the strongest intention of returning it  but when the time came, I couldn’t bear to part with it. It’s a statement piece that does not require a lot of thinking to work.

I created 2 outfits with it.

The first outfit:

I paired the overalls with a chambray top from ZARA and my black clog sandals

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The second outfit:

I paired the overalls with a striped tube top I got from Forever 21 awhile ago and a choker from Ardene.

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I recently started to watch Beverly Hills, 90210 and i’m surprised at how much I like it. The fashion in it is insane, I find myself wanting every outfit that Brenda wears. I have so many screenshots on my phone that i’m going to try to recreate.

 

 

 

Posted in Faith

All I Need & All That Matters

Amazing Grace,

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I did not think I’d be in the same position I was in before but here I am searching for another job. Money wise things have been quite bleak and I have struggled with trying to understand why I am unable to catch a break. I have less than $100 in my name and a Visa card to pay off and rent to pay which I do not have the money for. I’m not a careless spender, I just haven’t had income coming in lately. I’ve had a couple panic attacks where I have realized how dire my situation is and I have cried out to God to give me something, anything. With each panic attack my anxiety level increases and I want to wallow in my misery. I’ve always been an anxious person, I wasn’t aware that it was such a problem until I started living on my own.I didn’t know that the way i felt how had a name. Whenever I would start to get anxious I would look for relief in other things instead of looking for reassurance from God.

I remember in Job 2 when God allows Satan to attack Jobs health. Job’s wife said that he should disregard his integrity and curse God and die. To which Job responded: “You speak as one of the foolish women speaks. Shall we indeed accept good from God, and shall we not accept adversity?” Jobs wife wanted him to react to God how I’ve found myself reacting. I’ve  been a lukewarm Christian for a great amount of my life. God doesn’t want lukewarm Christians. You’re either all in or all out. I do not get to pick and choose the things that I want to do or don’t want to do. Why am I so willing to walk away from God and his word when I don’t get my way or things aren’t going well? I always think of this verse now to keep myself from being a conditional follower Of Christ. I’m all in. God loves me unconditionally, in my good and in my bad times and I have had some real bad times. Love is a choice, and it’s not real love until you love that person when things get messy and hard.

Just the other day, I read a passage that really spoke to me in my money situation.

2 Corinthians 12:7-10

Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

  • Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.I know that through this time, I am being taught a lesson. God uses pain and hardships to shape us into the Godly men and women that he sees.
  • Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  I recall all the times I cried out to God to take my problem away. I know he will answer my prayers but I just don’t know when. When paul pleaded God to take away his problem, God told him that his grace was SUFFICIENT, for his power was made perfect in weakness. AS I read this part, I knew that God was telling me the same thing. His grace is sufficient for me. His free, unmerited favour is sufficient ( being enough so that I lack nothing). Since I have God’s grace, I have all that I need. I don’t need to worry about money or the future or anything, he has got me covered. I have grown a lot more in my faith during the low points in my life than in the happier times. I depended on no one else but God in those low times and there I was aware of his power.
  • That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. I don’t know if I will ever delight in weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions or difficulties but i won’t run away and hide or be scared of them. because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.’

 

So right now, I am at peace. I’m surprised that at such a time as this, I can be so calm and unbothered. There are still times when frantic thoughts sneak their way into my mind but I am able to quiet them down with this truth: God’s grace is enough for me! 

I’m persevering onwards!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Posted in Life

Chasing Waterfalls

Something went wrong with the first post so i’m writing it again.

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My roommates and I took a short trip to Niagara Falls this weekend. We left on Friday and returned this afternoon. Unfortunately, we were not blessed with the best weather conditions. Friday was warm but gloomy, Saturday came with showers and cold winds and today was just plain cold.

On Friday, we walked around the area where our lodge was located and visited the outlet mall close by.We started Saturday off by going to another outlet mall ( we like to shop and we like deals) and then we headed over to the area surrounding the falls. We Had dinner at the Rainforest Cafe, which is a themed restaurant with an exterior and interior designed to mimic a rainforest. The food was decent but the atmosphere and overall experience was more noteworthy. We walked around the falls afterwards, taking pictures as we went along. The cold temperature prevented us from staying out any longer so we headed back to our room at the lodge and spent the night in.

I enjoyed our short trip and even though we did not do much, it was great to get away for awhile and take a vacation from our problems. Next time I definitely want to take the boat tour and maybe do one of the haunted houses…. …maybe.

A lil taste:

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The lodge looked like something out of an indie film

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Total Betties

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& a bit more:

 

 

Like Picasso

My sweet roommates treated me to paint nite for my birthday ( paint afternoon might be more accurate, the event started at 1:30). It was really relaxing and fun and I’m thankful I got to do it, plus I now have a painting to commemorate the day.

So what happens is that you show up and everything is provided for you. Before hand, you choose a picture you would like to paint. Different venues around the city have instructors who teach you how to paint certain images. The canvas, paints, brushes, water and napkin are all supplied. The one we went to today was located in an Irish Pub and you had the option to eat and drink as you went along. The instructor goes through a step by step tutorial of the example image. You are not required to recreate the same image, it’s all about artistic freedom. It was interesting to see how different the paintings all looked from each other. I love how subjective art is.

Next time, I’ll try a picture with more elements in it.

The process:

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My roommates paintings:

 

 

What I wore today:

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Posted in Beauty

What it is

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Its been about a year since I decided to go natural and i’m glad I did. When I first started out I read about how difficult it would be to maintain and manage. It’s not all easy to manage and maintain but I’ve found that if you just let it be, it can be. I’ll wash my hair maybe like twice a month and detangle with a shampoo brush after. In between washings I’d twist or braid overnight if I want to stretch my hair. Also twisting prevents the hair from tangling. For the most part I would spritz a mixture of water and conditioner on my hair each morning to moisturize it and run a hair pick through it ( conditioner is my best friend).

Here’s one years growth:

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Last year around my birthday after the big cut

 

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April 23 2016

Whats been up lately:

I started a youtube channel and filmed a video, check it out here:  70’s black girl

*on a side note, I heard snippets of Beyonce’s album today and i’m loving it. I’m waiting  until I can buy it on iTunes though. I don’t have Tidal money.

Posted in Faith

Are you there God? It’s me Charity

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I thought I’d share something I’ve recently been through. I thank God that I got through it.

Ever since I quit my sales job at Zara, I had a hard time finding a new job.  I can’t recall the number of places that I applied to. At the time I wasn’t too worried about it because I still had a bit of money leftover from my savings. As time went on, it became apparent that I needed a job ASAP. I had to pay rent, buy supplies for school and buy bus tickets. A couple friends of mine from school were also on the same boat. It seemed that absolutely no one was hiring. At one point, I got an email from a job I had applied to requesting to set up an interview and I was so relieved. However, when I contacted the manager to book the interview, I was told that the position had already been filled. To say I was disappointed would be an understatement. Still I kept applying.

During this time, my savings were decreasing . I prayed to God, that he would provide something for me. However as time went on and I saw no results I became frustrated and disheartened. I felt like God had abandoned me. He knew my situation and yet my prayers weren’t answered. He felt distant to me. I was never in any real danger because my parents were always there to help me out if I needed help but this was something I wanted to be able to do for myself. I thought perhaps God was trying to teach me that it was okay to ask for help, so I asked for help. I later had a phone interview  for clothing store that I really liked but I did not get the job.

Wanting some encouragement, I searched for ways to overcome the distance. I came upon an article on Familylife.com titled:’When it seems like God has abandoned you’. The article talked about two truths. One, that Jesus shared in our sufferings and that God is good and generous. Jesus suffered way more than I’d ever suffer in my life. Many other people have suffered and are suffering way more than I was. Usually comparing our situations to others is not beneficial but this time it was. Comparing my time of trial to the suffering of Jesus, Job and the less fortunate people of this world really put my problem in perspective.Another thing that brought about hope was realizing that my problem was only temporary. It wasn’t going to be a forever thing, I just had to wait it out in faith.

It wasn’t that God was distant. It was me that had created the distance. I finally gave the burden to him. I had done all that I could and it was time to rely solely his power and not on my abilities. My abilities were certainly limited.

Fast forward to the last couple weeks:

After sending out a fresh batch of applications, I was contacted for three interviews. One was scheduled for Monday, one on Wednesday  and one was a phone interview that I did as I was on my way to the one on Wednesday. I was offered the job on Wednesday which I took, and  later that day I was offered the job from Monday which I declined. I’m excited to see where this job will take me. It’s in downtown Toronto, which makes me feel like a real working girl. I’ve also had to overcome my fear of the subway which means I go check out all the cool vintage stores downtown *yay*.

Ive been living here for about eight months now and its now that things have really started.

God is good. 🙂